I think of lovers as trees, growing to and from one another.
Searching for the same light.
Why can't you see me?
Why can't you see me?
Everyone else can.
~ Beyonce Knowles / Warsan Shire
I went to Wales. I thought a lot about love. I thought a lot about trees and I thought a lot about the weather. I found a missing part of myself there.
I have learnt, likeRhiannon, to live my life like a bird, to be that woman taken by the wind. In order to truly be free you must face and speak your truth. Learning to be vulnerable, learning a new type of inner strength, putting my self deliberately into situations that make me feel exposed, but in turn set me free. Last time I posted on this blog, I posted about love. It has been a long time and this is why. When storms pass, all that is left to do is to get chasing the rainbows!
For Storm Katie
Any ability to feel and see deeply is absolutely a blessing. A sense of knowing creates healing, you become a healer, but when it comes to love, being able to see straight through to the soul of things can find you dangerously drawn to the storms that lie within people.
Once you see light in amongst the rain clouds, it can manifest into tireless missions to create sunshine in their lives, brightly shining your light where it hurts, healing their pain, getting them to see their own silver linings.
Once you have seen it, buried deep, even the tiniest rays, however fleeting can charm you.
The warmth, the shine you think only you can see, the mystery of why it's such a rarity, they are an enigma and you become transfixed!
You start to enjoy the torrential down pours, you chase the thrill of their violent winds, all because you know that what follows is the calm. The beautiful clarity.
Blue skies and any opportunity to have them light up and shine upon you.
You end up purely living your life chasing and searching for those deep blue moments, the calm before and after their uncontrollable storms.
You love them more than your need for protection. You love them more than you love yourself.
When your intuition screams at you, you ignore it, you choose not to hear, because as they say love leaves you blind.
Blinded by the light, however fleeting, you know it's there. It is buried underneath a life time of pain that you're convinced you can wash away. You want more than anything to set them free and you cling on so tightly to what you think you can see, to what you KNOW they can be.
You get so deeply battered and damaged by the destruction their storms cause, but you make excuses.
You take deeper roots, you build storm defences.
You become your own pillar of strength, being strong means that you can withstand anything they throw at you, you can be there waiting, standing tall for when it eventually passes,
but you also know that deep down,
you are saturated and you are weathered!
It is only a matter of time and even the mightiest of Oaks must fall.
One day a hurricane is sent for you ,one that it is too powerful to ignore. Blown apart, it rips you from your roots, you tumble and you split open. You are left with no choice but to look up,
To face your truth.
It is sent for you and you wake!
True strength lies always in being vulnerable, allowing yourself to be wrong, to learn your lessons.
You learn that storms are not meant for getting lost in, you must always choose to ride them out.
They must pass!
If they don't, then you learn to let go of the things that are not meant for you, you let the wind take them.
You can't and never will be able to control the weather!
Often with heart shaped leaves, Ivy is a symbol of binding. It can not live with out something to cling on to and to grow with. Always growing through adversity.
Ivy binds us together.
B A Y L A U R E L ~
Traditionally lovers would place a bay laurel leaf under each others pillows on valentines day and that night dream of love.
If they dreamt of each other it was said that they would be married within the year.
Bay is a very powerful manifesting tool.
R O S E M A R Y ~
Symbolising a constancy in love.
Traditonally presented at weddings by bridesmaids to the groom bound with ribbon as a token of true love and loyalty.
L A V E N D E R ~
Given by many a lover to impress and attact with lavender's beautiful colour and aroma.
Charles II would take sachets of dried lavender tied up wth ribbon to his secret meetings with his mistress Nell Gwyn.
T H E H E L L E B O R E ~
Helebore's don't actually have any association with love, but in the language of flowers they mean to 'Relieve my anxiety', I thought that was a fitting one for anyone who dreads valentines day because of what it symbolises.
Think like the Hellebore, standing tall with beauty and grace through the toughest of winters, bringing hope of Spring and better times ahead.
Warning: Hellebores are very poisonous! Make sure you wash your hands throughly and do not combine with herbs that you intend to keep and use afterwards!
Wimborne Minster, where the town cryer is also the resident reggae dj, pumpkin festivals are taken deadly serious and where morris dancers have their annual meet up at our local pub, aptly named 'The Green Man'.
Wimborne is a town where old traditions sit side by side with entrepreneurial independant businesses and sustainability and creativity is key.
WhenPixie asked me what I love about where I live, I didn't have to look very far for my answer.
Walking past a Romany Gypsy family selling wreaths outside their wagon, surrounded by families embracing their return every year!
Community spirit is what makes this town so very special, whether that be in the form of the Maypole going up without fail every May day, the annual literay fetsival, or all of the volunteers who give up their time to make sure our beautiful Art Deco theatre stays open every single night!
The Winter solstice is traditionally time for 'the turning of the wheel'
The wheel of cycles and the wheel of life.
This year Dec 21st will be our darkest day and the longest night, with it the 22nd marks the returning of the sun, there will now be an increase in the amount of daylight we have, sparking off the return of the growing seasons.
It is the perfect time to embrace the darkness and go inwards to find the parts of us we need to let go and the parts of us we need to nurture and grow.
All of the ingredients in this post represent just that, I hope it will inspire you to go out and forage for some of your own yule time magic.
Holly: A Protector plant- reminding us to look inwards at this time and reflect
Ivy: Representing growing through adveristy and Binding us together
Pine: Representing strength, fire and longevity
Yew: Representing transformation and rebirth
Mistletoe: The sacred plant of the druids- healer, protector, representing fertility and the giving of life... Also great for kissing!
Our Christmas tree is always toadstool and reindeer themed so I was delighted to find this article (thanks to Karen) all about 'Mother Christmas' and what the Reindeer and Amanita Mascaria symbolise at this time of year
The wreath you see in this post was made at a Sensory Solutions wreath making workshop held at Deans Court. Go and have a read about what they do, they are very special ladies changing the face of how we medicate and heal ourselves.
I spent the day with some gorgeous like minded ladies, really getting to know the plants, learning all about their medicinal and healing properties, drinking homemade Chai tea, singing carols and listening to gorgeous Fi's endless wisdom. It was very special day and I came away feeling so inspired.
Winter Solstice blessings and a very Happy Christmas to you all.
"Twyman & Beeching's research suggests that the dome of the Grotto marks out the growing season (March to october) from start to finish, with the top of the shaft acting " like a pinhole camera, projecting a ball of sunlight onto it's north wall", the ball varying in size according to the point in the season. At the Spring equinox, it sits at the top of the vertical stripe per week becoming larger and reaching its maximum size and depth at the summer solstice. Afterwards, it climbs back at the same rate, diminishing in size, until it shines at the top again at the autumn equinox."
-The Enigma Of The Margate Shell Grotto
Patricia Jane Marsh
"As D. Mitchell has observed, the Shell Grotto could well be seen to represent the journey of the human soul down the birth canal into life and fertility, then on into death and rebirth among the stars (in the end chamber).
There are also two panels in the Grotto which can be interpreted as representing the tree of life, a common symbol for all ancient cultures, as well as one with a date palm sacred to astarte, the principal Phoenician goddess."
-The Enigma Of The Margate Shell Grotto
Patricia Jane Marsh
Built underground, found by the Victorians, 4.6 Million Shells, a resident 'glamorous ghost' and no records of when it was built, and who built it!
Margate's magical mystery.
My favourite theory (one of many) is that it was built as an underground Pheonician temple from the fourth and fifth millennia BCE! Seeing is believing, i'll leave it to you to visit and make your own minds up.
A very special and beautiful enigma and an amazing Birthday surprise, thank you Craig!
Everlasting and completely compostable... No glue gun or metal wire in sight!
If the traditional wreath style is more to your liking them join myself and Ellie, the Deans Court gardener, on Thursday 10th December for a lovely day of foraging, tutoring and Christmas festivities in the Deans Court grounds.